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| BITTERSWEET SCRIPTURES |
| 01.11.05 (12:37 pm) [edit] |
dreaming of what there could never be
last in this misshapen reality
noone could ever be or truly see
simply praying for another savior to set them free
another high price to pay
living a lie
lacking meaning to stay
listen to the silent cries of angels long ago
emotions so numb, this they could never show
how much more can one life take
salvation onto him at such a high stake
this innocence, your mastery of altering what is fake
was there ever a true right or wrong
proving this first breath, a note to my death song
bleeding forever with somber thoughts of suicide
bloomings of nightmares which no one can hide
is it true that life’s meaningless value but a mere test
truth lies, crimson tears beyond the crypt so sinfully rest
speak now of what’s best, fills me with strife
split worlds, imagination torn down by a knife
why do you cry for me my dear
screams soundless of this world you shall never hear
another high price to pay
living a lie
lacking meaning to stay
bloodshot with anguish which all we do feel
never a chance to grow or to heal
stalled flawlessness trapped in a mirror
last the day my final stitch fell as a tear
left alone and cold, bathing now in fear
you shall never see this shattered reality
broken, enchained, tell me you’re now free
bleeding forever with somber thoughts of suicide
bloomings of nightmares which no one can hide
a tainted love you will never repair
asking only why this love is never fair
tell me why for me, deep inside you cry
I am nothing but dirt, trapped in a lie
living now with a purpose, which is to soon die
something so true, this something so old
somewhere within a dead angel grown cold
this is my price, so high what I pay
living only a lie
lacking this meaning, this reason to stay
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| VOID |
| 01.11.05 (12:36 pm) [edit] |
how many times have dreams been broken
forgotten memories yearning for what is soaken
nightmares flee from this light of day
erasing the thoughts and reasoning to never stay
what once was lost now is forever bound
drifting meaningless, these words without sound
last beyond dead serpentine skin
washed away by sanctified sin
how much more until he will win
start of the heart where grey times begin
baptized now in glorified pain
ranked by number to forever gain
this is what has become of thee
a mirror reacting to truths of reality
paying the price for what you want me to be
can you not see, you’re a lamb, tamed and unfree
wash away the truths and lies beyond what’s comprehended in thought
forgetting sacred rites elders and pagans once taught
taunt me dear, Oh! Taunt me true
light refracting, so grey now is each hue
undeserving, unloving, a heart turned pale blue
watch it was away at the darkest hour of the night
giving all so nothing is right
undeveloped true your ghostly sight
how many times more can each raven fly
each rose so damned to wilt and die
look away shameful one as each tear you deny
a soul worth nothing in the eyes of your dark
black stained beast, you hold his mark
these are the wings for they shall never exist
fade me true, black hue, white mist
imperfections flawless as snow true air
questioning why this nothings so fair
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| Nymphetamine :cradle of filth |
| 01.09.05 (8:44 am) [edit] |
Laid to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A "V" of black swans
On with hope to the grave
And though Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones
Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain....
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again
Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above onto me?
For once upon a time
On the binds of your loneliness
I could always find the slot for your sacred key
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discoulours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
Nymphetamine girl.
Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
My Nymphetamine girl.
Wicked with your charm
I'm circled like prey
Back in the forest
Were whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More white lady laid
Than pillars of salt...
(keeping Sodom at at bay)
Fold to my arms
Hold their message away
And dance out to the moon
As we did in those golden days
Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay
Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above onto me?
For once upon a time
On the binds of your loneliness
I could always find the slot for your sacred key
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discoulours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
Nymphetamine girl.
Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
My Nymphetamine girl.
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| bleeding tears... |
| 01.08.05 (8:42 pm) [edit] |
How can this be me
Damned to pain that shall never be my beauty
A whore where blood is all I see
This can’t be me
I close my eyes and let crimson tears fall
This dark fate unto me my true call
Clothes stained black as the night is long
Chanting of darkness with a simple song
How can this be my true reality
Where blood is all I see
Simply repeating these pains as true beauty
This now is the reflection I see
Hear my voice that has no sound from the heart
Yearning to destroy you when eyes meet first start
Dreams of sweet voids calling my name
vials are my eyes which shutter as I am filled with this shame
Tell me this is to be
Where blood crawls through my veins
A misshapen reality
Where beauty is something I shall never see
Holy words once spoken so true
Why did I ever say I love you
My poison upon my lips are your final place of rest
Rendering true this forbidden test
Call my name and whisper it all to me
Tell me I am for once free
Tell me you love me
And shatter the remains of my reality
Where has this come from for I feel so lost within
Covering myself in this never dying sin
Cycles that echo through the halls of the faits
Tell me never against me this rates
One last time it goes so far through the skin
Letting once again this demon to win
Once again my bitter times begin
Cold and withered before just as it has been
Blood seeping from my eyes as I cry to the night
Trying to find this perfection in the light
Hearing the words that tell me I’ll never be right
Once more once more
Once again this is my prayer of being a tainted whore
I’ll never need saving from the darkness
Let it consume my innards before I cry
Living only now to die
Alone and broken once more
Once more
Skin of blood shroud me now before I fall
Wither away as you watch me fall
Let this darkness once again win
As I once again am damned to fall
Nightmares consuming my waking days
Purple and blues formation of this maze
Lost in this sacred haze
Days now turn horrid greys
Tell me this is simply another phase
Once again I cry out to the skies
Feeling all of these destroying lies
Slowly it dies
As forever I let out these silent cries
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| reaper of dreams |
| 01.05.05 (5:29 pm) [edit] |
Falling through my hands of an emotionless state of mind
Wrong doings together we point out as we find
Face to face with the final judgement of something so real
Nnever being able to shake the chill running down our spine we feel
How could a blackened heart ever heal
Bound by a kiss of poison only to seal
The gate locked fast with this fate
Decomposing slowly consumed by hate
Tell the monster inside to die
Tell him he can never hide
Tell me you aren’t already dead inside
A pain forgotten within an aged soul
Fooling those who see me as whole
Did you ever truly try to see deep inside
Did you try to see what I have come to hide
Demons at my right side serve as my only trustful guide
These rules of earth I never will learn to abide
As long as this darkness still stings deep within my side
Tell the monster inside to die
Tell him he can never hide
Tell me you aren’t already dead inside
Why did you damn me on the day my soul was sold
A withered mind grown so weary and so old
Following the truth lesson of three fold
Forgetting everything I was ever told
Only lies only lies
Never such a thing escaping my mouth as silent cries
Why choose wrong from right if everything wilts and dies
No truth can stand hidden behind such black-shot eyes
Tell the monster inside to die
Tell him he can never hide
Tell me you aren’t already dead inside
What happened for the skies are so grey
This reality with a deep longing to stay true this way
Wasting every minute of every glorified day
How long can each soul I see handle a new life
Fights amongst those who choose for or against the knife
Conceiving their seeds in a world filled with strife
One man alone could never handle the burden of a thousand more
Those like me now looked down upon and called a whore
Drink the wine of his side’s bleeding sore
To him promise me you shall forever shut your door
Never left the stranger in wrapped in shrouds of gold
What you think is warm proves the bitter are always cold
Tell the monster inside to die
Tell him he can never hide
Tell me you aren’t already dead inside
What lies partake today that give me another reason to stay
Keep on writing and keep on dreaming are all they say
Add more perspectives your inner workings are far to grey
How can I be forced to show what lies and cries
Show my monster that only wishes to fly
A broken mask is hard to find
Flawless damnation covering each and every mind
Who looks in the eyes of those living in filth and dirt
No one ever said we could never feel hurt
Look in the eyes of all you meet
Sense my pain filtering through those you great
Trying to break you down and realize what you see
Is my own reflection taunting me and whisperings of never being free
Freak it says to me the one they call dark dream
Sew up my forever bleeding seam
You’ll never again be able to redeem
Soon you’ll learn not to trust your eyes for nothing is as it seems
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| Tainted so, your horrid death wish. |
| 01.03.05 (6:41 am) [edit] |
Sweetest pills falling from my eyes
Tears of endless blue haze to my surprise
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
Masks broken beyond repair
End it all in shameful despair
Death to those you did not prepare
For those are the ones who aren’t so rare
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
Tell me what has come of this place
Decomposing this human race
Amazing it is this deadly grace
Ending quickly at an atomic pace
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
Hear the words of the prophets of old
Another soul they just sold
Fools! All that glitters is cold
You found the center gold
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
Watch the flies consume what’s on the inside
Reach deep within and pull out the nothing you hide
You thought you lost it the day you cried
Your hate for me is my everlasting pride
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
My tourniquet cut your poison from reaching my heart
Decay from the very start
Turn my veins as black as night
Tell me this was never meant to be right
Death to you! Foolish light
You’ll never win this unending fight
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
Faith has gotten us nowhere
Who ever said this nightmare was fair
My apple of concord of the smoothest rare
Damn for you to me you dare
You never said I would Care!
This is my foil I consume the moon by
Now I watch the stars fall and die
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
Forever is the word lovers use to win over life
Take it away and your left with a knife
Cut me deary and see me bleed
Watch discrepancy bloom from this seed
My words you will learn to heed
And my hydra your fake shall feed
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
I thought the fates taught you last time around
You were never heard
Never the slightest sound
Your angel hit hard on the middle ground
So absurd
They chant behind my mind
Your escape my bind
Something you could never find
Intertwined
The golden thread begins to unwind
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
I feel you in me searching through my soul
Try digging deeper you filthy asshole
You never said you would make me feel whole
Now you sit alone smoking from the finest bowl
Watch these realities begin to roll
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
Beat me down and raise yourself higher than before
You are intoxicated my dear
Nothing but my tainted whore
Bleeding from me your never healing sore
Where are the pagans of which you speak
I smell your decay and your hydra may now seek
What is left within your soul
Rotten apple with a center hole
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
Drain from my eyes like the snake you are
How far
How far
Chained to this frozen bar
Three fold this chant of nothing bazaar
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
I’ve traveled by the voice of the moon you worship
Feel my skin begin to rip
Feel my reaper’s grip
Choking isn’t it
Seeing how he can do as he sees fit
Isn’t this what you wanted so true
For me to worship the one true you
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
His head grows hard with a second cut
Look how the hydra is in his rut
Greed with envy and a tint of purple hue
My breath to you has turned bitter blue
No one ever did knew
That my incantations were meant for only you
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
Why do you scream my name when it has no power at all
I’ll laugh the day you fall
Hit hard and chained to the wall
You never did learn how to crawl
Pitiful how you seek refuge within my magick
Your split tongue I lick
Crimson tears turn my skin bitter sick
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
You are my paper doll sewn with the finest thread
Your fate now is what you should dread
This is what you get when you forget all that was said
My curses are your deadly lead
So twisted you are locked in your own head
~~Nothing but fake cries~~
~~Nothing but lies~~
Reach for the stars as the push you lower than me
Look and feel my own shattered reality
Something you longed to never see
How could this be
How could this be
Don’t ask me
What happens when I multiply three times three
These are my wings that set only me free
This is the fake
This is the real
This is what I am meant to be
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| living to die |
| 01.03.05 (6:39 am) [edit] |
How could I exist another day
While consuming all the words you say
In-existent is what I wish now to pray
Time to cease and heart turned to grey
Back has changed shape a final time around
Together forever to you I am bound
My silent cries leaving a deafening sound
Now I send out my precious bloodhound
shaking to fight the light
nothing wrong
nothing right
humming my death song
Years have built up within my chest
Never given the chance to rest
Delaying what I knew was best
Numbing all the rest
Drop my dream in the wishing well
Another thing I have yet to sell
Lost it the day I fell
Down my angel was consumed by hell
With the kiss of a death knoll in my ears
Listening to all my horrid fears
No one hears
The quick dropping of my nothing tears
watching time pass quickly by
nothing in a world of grey
nothing could make me cry
humming sweet nothings of reasons not to stay
Broken reflections around me I see
Another thing to add of what’s becoming reality
Misshapen and unheard of things meant to be
Never realizing the darkness within me
Where has this come from they seem to ask
While taking sips of his blood-filled flask
My reply is to simply take of your mask
A demon within has overtaken your task
Who is to say of what is yet to come
Who is to say it has already begun
Holding tight to this sanctified gun
Mary crying as I tell her to run
oh look, it is me in the hour glass
stationed and ready
holy black mass
just hold her steady
Burning one last time
Cast me away into a well as a dime
One last infernal rhyme
Wordless says the silent mime
Ripples within the well
Watch it glaze over to hell
Freezing what you long to sell
Your flawless body of dirt that fell
Save yourself from what I have become now
Or take another bow
No one knew how
Worship me like you worship your cow
tell me what you learn
something horrid
as I watch you burn
I won you as I bid
One last final sin
As I begin to shed my skin
Now I win
Now I win
Watch it fall from the stars
Locked behind these rusty bars
Eating the finest tars
I promise I’ll seal you tight in the jars
Your ashes seem to make me twitch
Seeing you fight in a casket you bitch
On the back of you I itch
Scrape me harder till the blood turns rich
one last time around
together forever
we are bound
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| Time Bomb Baby |
| 01.03.05 (6:38 am) [edit] |
I thought the sky fell when I spewed my final spell
watching the gods be consumed by this burning hell
.....I guess not
what will it take to kill the heart in me
setting this pain uncontrollably free
you said you yearned to be
now I rip off your wings and show you true reality
the nothings that were meant for you
you could never learn to stay true
where shall it happen that the wings grow back
emotions of plenty you seem to lack
could it be could it be
that you were never meant to see
be true be true
I never loved you
what will happen when my skies turn black
who will take all the flack
reap me please for I love you so
dirty within I begin to sow
will this end in love for you
no no you can’t be true
dirty nasty sin for me
something you could be
tell me what you see
nothing but shattered reality
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| live like a teenage christ, i'm a saint, got a date with suicide |
| 01.03.05 (4:07 am) [edit] |
You saw the blood drip from my eyes
Filling this emptiness with sins and lies
Can you not hear my silent cries
Watch my roses bloom in the garden of Eden
Nothing in the garden now is forbidden
Eat the fruit which consumes the light
Darkness shadowing what was never right
Blind yourself with this sanctified gift of sight
Then crush your knuckles with your immortal might
Dark shadows of angels forbidden words of death
Racing through my veins faster than this horrid meth
Where has this decay come to be
Shattering my reflection over and over in reality
Tell me you could never see
What was meant to be something you shall dream of me
Earth crumbles at the feet of what has yet to come
Counting down to this holy sum
The sweetest taste of your lips upon my skin
Cover me now with your unending sin
Whispering the words of what you shall never win
Look now and watch as these bitter times begin
Sewn up stitches of the patches in my soul
Making you feel so incredibly whole
Raptures of the sourest sorts come reap what they will
Emotions running steady and a heart beat cold and still
Words enter my mind but don’t seem to stop the kill
Another corpse this grave has had its fill
These tears streaming down my face so pale
Unending void and a thirst for you, as me, to fail
Sanctification now has its own personification
This obsession is my horrid addiction
Of what has yet to consume all of my adaptations
Come and feel this ultimate intoxication
To this world so grey
You never gave my heart reason to stay
Incantations of the stygian seas will come to be
Setting what little there is left of my faith free
Come and become one of who others shall never see
Wishing to be simply like me
Your death wish seems to be my entering your world
Around your heart my thorns now have curled
Drip now the blood that has turned black in time
Withered and worn from each timeless rhyme
Your nothing but a butterfly wingless mime
Hoping you will get away with another heart-shattering crime
Did you ever plan to sell your soul to the dark king himself
I did only to discover that he is myself with bittersweet health
Hydras of plenty will see the last spot of light in the night
Tell me something sweet now that you hold as so truly right
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| death to the emotionally dead |
| 01.03.05 (4:07 am) [edit] |
Chanted my obsession would kill me
a broken state to a withered reality
no one would be able to see
the pain within that wasn’t to be
how could this be rotten
a rapture waiting to be forgotten
words listless as can be
something so real to thee
what has become of the one they called fate
when my heart has blackened for unending hate
set the toll and I pay this high rate
a whore to nothing on a suicidal date
what is left in a soul that has never seen light
one after another each consumed by nothing right
feeding me your holy bait
locked and bound to this sanctified grate
the time left me alone with an angel from hell
laughing down upon those who, at my feet, fell
another thing so false to sell
watch as this darkness begins to swell
give me something more to write
try and pierce my unending sight
I’ll give you another prophecy to tell
I’ll tell you that soon you’ll hear your death bell
cut me and watch the black bleed through
no one knew
that deep within you’re the reason I wouldn’t stay true
no one knew that this blackness was caused by you
love was the thing implanted on my mind
an escape from it I could not find
into your web I flew
into your crimson satin you blew
what words have escaped from my lips
causing you to take bloody sips
crucifixion tattooed on your hips
sex appeal and repulsion the reaper now grips
nightmares you could never escape
another thing the serpent could rape
away the goddess snips
as she watches all the trips
can’t you stand knowing you could never crawl
never knew you wouldn’t handle this final fall
you are nothing now
nothing now but my paper doll
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| Why do I always try to find out what I am |
| 01.01.05 (6:23 pm) [edit] |
mechanical heart with a metal shelled soul
filling gaps
trying anything to feel whole
listen to the saps
gloating about what meets their parent’s goal
love has traveled a thousand light years
to find out who
has been bleeding all of these tears
only to find you
fulfilling all my deepest fears
a fallen angel could never pick you up now
something deadly has come
never knew, but I would succeed somehow
counting to this horrid sum
all that’s left is for you to bow
tell me my generation hasn’t already gone to hell
we have no heart
we have no soul left to sell
we were dead from the start
we have yet to hear our own death bell
(never knew our guardian angel fell)
crosses and signs
I have seen them all
peel off my inner rinds
all you need left to do is fall
raped by reality when you were hard against my wall
running from one to the next in a space so small
now I sit upon my thrown
never knowing how to crawl
tell me something I have not heard before
tell me that you
are the one true flawless whore
you know I could never be true
I’m your whore forever more
I am your lasting bleeding sore
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| I like to put you in a Trance |
| 12.31.04 (10:24 am) [edit] |
Shattered in dreams of things unseen
Whisper to me every last dream
Tainted boy pure and unclean
Ripping at every seam
Nothing left to redeem
How has this come to pass
Shattered reflection in broken glass
Hidden behind a mask
Dripping final in a forgotten flask
Unfinished task
Can’t you tell there are things unsaid
Pure and flawlessly red
Watch and wait for it all now is dead
To me your lies were fed
How could the skies last so long
Never touching this horrid ground
Only whispering a death song
Where once the wings were found
Could it be this is the final sound
Forever we are bound
Tell me it turned to flies
Tell me there were no lies
Whisper all the cries
Silent dies
Silent question of why’s
How many times the countdown began
How much faster you ran
When you heard the truth of me
When you found I was never pure or free
When you found I couldn’t free you from reality
When the earth died with the last thought of me
How many times I lied for you
So many thoughts of me staying true
Another thing faded a deadly hue
Crucifixion to my heart you once planned
Deadly wilted upon this land
My tears never touched the seas of souls
Filling not but another hole
Did I fulfill your goals
Did I ever truly make you feel whole
The last kiss you ever laid upon my cheek
Decay is what it wreaked
How could you expect me to stay for you
How could I stay true
To a whore who sold her soul
Like me, never meant to feel whole
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| I practice my Prostitution...And spread the people's pollution! |
| 12.31.04 (10:22 am) [edit] |
Things have been locked within my soul
So long this time this hole
How many times must I chant to feel whole
Let my will be my goal
I thought it died when it began to sew
Your face against the mirror I’d love to throw
No one ever knew
I saw the shattered pieces fall to the floor
The demons chant that I’m the one true whore
Something tainted you always said you would adore
Then you whispered, “I’ll love you forever more”
How could I take this in when my mind has died
I lost the will when last I cried
You were my only true reason to hide
If you want, come on my wings and say I tried
I’ll never tell what you told me on wolf’s night
The times we, together, lost our sight
When the black moon marked a beginning of this fight
Something pure and never right
How could I tell you that you were for me
When I knew that this is my shattered reality
Did you think I could exist so guilt free
Can you not see?
Magick seems to me my last twist of fate
Raging in my veins full of dedicated hate
Only for you
Only to stay true
No one knew
How this could me my final time
Laying this out in a twisted rhyme
Tragically in love with a death of life
Taking it finally with words of a knife
Living in a pain free strife
I saw your blood spill from my eyes
Filling your heart with my lies
You never heard my silent cries
The midnight hours hid my will
Consuming what may still be
What has become of things that I once found joy in
Wings of torn lies and decomposed by sin
Did you know you couldn’t win
When the darkness was within my eyes years ago
Pretending this wreck was a show
Black lights within my skin now glow
All because of you
All because of lies so untrue
Glistening your blood as a morning dew
Concentration left my mind
Your escape is something I keep from you
Something you shall never find
Hell to you I now bind
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| Dark Consumer |
| 12.27.04 (1:18 pm) [edit] |
Suffering from nightless dreams
Hearing the stars whispering that nothing is as it seems
Young and innocent this body used to be
Deep longings of escaping these bards and screaming free
Keeping nothing inside a mind that has been bleeding for years
Feeding thine abyss nothing but humanistic fears
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Down run these unmistakable tears
Screaming so loud that no one hears
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Solemnly alone to decipher
Snakes within once again stir
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Praying for moonlit nights to once again deliver
An illuminated path to follow in this chaotic river
Deception being the only tool I have already overused
A battered soul that can no longer cry blood or be abused
No more cycles of the siren’s fate can my reflection take
Already three folds shattered and three folds fake
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I can no longer feel this crooked stake
To me this blood I again forsake
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Can you not hear my voice of an emotionless void
Colloid programmed to resist being destroyed
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Prophet’s words I consume of which you once enjoyed
A final act to this ending you seem to avoid
Your angel of light my darkest vision of lust
Crimson pages al mechanical begin to boil and rust
Tell me you never saw this tragic ending
The numbness was foreshadowing of what I now sing
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| A Few Personal Icons |
| 12.27.04 (1:17 pm) [edit] |
  
  
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| Hell drips from thine eyes blooming of suicides |
| 12.27.04 (1:16 pm) [edit] |
I saw the rose bloom for another cycle of its life
God cut it down slowly with his tainted knife
Healing the nothing yet feeling such strife
How has the world crumbled at the feet of fate
Could it be I have finally been consumed by hate
Let the blossom be withered by whom it may
Give it no sunlight that bleeds reason to stay
No water of life everlasting, amen
Letting nothing touch the innocence it holds within
Instead, being showered with never ending sin
Stygian color it holds in petals to fake an emotional win
A dried stem and leaves create the perfect reason to never cry
A longing when staring at the stars of flying so very high
Protected by the clouds that condemn the rose’s life to hell
Newly created with beauty yet having no soul to sell
How beautiful this new world in the eyes of the seeds that once fell
Creating this flawless black perfection with a sent of viper’s sting
Simply another song the angels shall bleed as they sing
Sweet innocent one of the earth that consumes us all
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All I ever wanted was someone to stop me from this fall
Changing inside of things I can no longer hide
Felt the last breath of hope escape me when I cried
One last attempt, one last pathetic time I tried
How can a dreamer dream when the yearning died
How can truth be told when they all chant of when I lied
Have I been blinded for a final time
I can’t stop but lose myself in each endless rhyme
Raw feelings or emotions that fill the pages with my dry tears
Filling each and every way with horrid paragon of fears
Never seeing why I try when my mirror never hears
Telling myself I am fine with another chant or another spell
Another time a falling demon, the same as last he dreamed and fell
Another stone I drop into an empty wishing well
Another time I hear this silencing death bell
Another time I am trapped in my mind with my escape being hell
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| Forever....somethings comming over me |
| 12.27.04 (1:15 pm) [edit] |
How could I have been so blind
wanting what everyone else had in mind
Thinking the crows whispered the same
Building down in shame
What has been lost at heart
Who said it must be from the start
Crimson tears fall from the rose
Telling me how it grows
Black petals fall from my eyes
Take it away and return to the skies
Falling blind from all that dies
Blackness had consumed the soul I loved true
Cycles change and the stars show it had been you
Tell me how these wings let you
As I watched, it flew
Lullabies with silent cries
The chants goes whispered in lies
Learning from all have let it go
Now it seems to slowly flow
Away
Locked in a heart black as this page
Watch eyes filled with rage
Burn all the dreams I hold
Another body another thing sold
Glitter, glitter so very cold
Three fold
These rhymes that fly through night skies
Yearning to cry and break all these lies
Watch as it wilts and slowly dies
Moon shatters the things unspoken in so many words
Lambs of time blind to what is heard
Fear locked upon the earth trapped with a kiss
Look down before the final chance you may miss
Mystical yet undoing all the things done before
Longing for nothing more
That to heal the one I love
Taking a breath, the chance
Of becoming another whore.
~*~
Tell me the thing I long to hear
Tell me I am locked in fear
Shattered mirrors they once told lies
Telling how so many things control these cries
Decay and wingless flies
Our song we held dear with each breath we took
Play thing on the rusted hook
How could we forget the feeling inside
Lasting forever the thing we both hide
Earth and Sky with water of fire
Walking along together
Looking for something to take us higher
Dance with the music that rains from above
The thing we all fear with every dream
Ripping down seams of this reality
Stygian so cold
Tell what nothing has left
One last forever breath
Hand in hand together traveling
The final string that brings tears to our eyes
What has happened to the love that once was true
A forgotten emotion no one can read
Words to head we never cared to listen
Blind from what we once knew as right
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| My December |
| 12.27.04 (1:14 pm) [edit] |
She sings sweet black notes
incantations nothing more
swimming thick lies dead in the moat
always and forever to play the whore
screams the child within the thicket
fallen roses upon fresh earth are the footsteps
maturity has taken its toll on time once more
forever and ever it plays the whore
reality has nothing left to give anymore
bleeding away from a crimson sore
please tell me you adore my perfect whore
throw it all away to the moonlit night
given reverence without a fight
never knowing the difference from wrong or right
knowledge no longer coming from the center sight
Tell me more from your perfect world
circling around imagination
this is what was hurled
another simple incantation
how could I hold on to a thing I could not feel
never given the chance to grow, never to heal
hues of dirty earth summon from the ground
revealing this altered state of reality
never shall it let out sound
never again shall I truly see
Something deep inside above the hands they push me down
watching through the eye of love this couldn’t be unreal
how something I have always seen come to never heal
tell me what have I done to feel like this
never asking for this tainted wish
I wanted it fall so long ago
left alone with a feeling of an empty whole
never did I yearn to sell my soul
never did I wish for this sensation to grow
only chants in the night wash away the tears
only chants in the night fight away the fears
only chants tonight shall take it away so silent to the ears.
(My December-Linkin Park)
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And ITake back all
The things I said
To make you
Feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the
Things I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
These are my snow-covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the things
I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to haveSomewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
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| Stygian |
| 12.27.04 (1:12 pm) [edit] |
Moon cries out in sacred pain of things that cannot be said
Hecate now gaining from the dreams she once was fed
Bloody now for Crone is at her hole that fits in her head
Maiden, please don’t blanket three of things so pure and red
Windless nights and summer breeze so dark behind the clock
Chanting quick of royalty so dead behind eyes bled
Dipping all the starry cries within their broken head
Dream of these and tell me why you mock
What has happened to the star that fades behind her eyes
Whisper true in deepest hues of flawless colored lies
Scream out loud in silent cries
Or blessed decay will watch as it all dies
Hmm to me your purest song
A death march of the spiders web so true
Another tear is meant for you
Until moon cries, “It’s Wrong!”
What now, mortified alone
Deep within its flesh and bone
Cold and worn soul of stone
Belittle never! Sacred Crone
feel the fear of what’s to come
counting down the holy sum
widdershin’s forever more
bleeding stygian at the unholy sore
bitter sweet of souls inside
shattered nothing seem to hide
beyond reflections shattered places
never seeing beyond haunting faces
serpents hearts and a bloody egg
heart-shaped to break but never to beg
in reality of this time
Whisper to the gods so high
prayers un-dead emotions I cannot cry
see it all as it fades away
given no reason to go or to stay
~*~
Golden fertility among the sun and the moon
Lunar light decayed within the center of it all
Watch now, for it can change its shape as a sand dune
Look and see black letters all engraved on the rune
Was it ever what you wanted most
This belief in the father, son, and holy ghost
That had fallen from the sky
Hear it cry and watch it fly
Fill me with each flawless lie
How did this all fall apart
Concord apple is a stake in thine heart
Listen to the pebbles drop into this lake so cold
Never learning, so discerning sacred three true fold
Didn’t hear and could not care what’s learned from what is told
Hear the screams that cut the seams
Fading with all the holy dreams
Never meant, heaven sent to break all those who hit
How could he, when it asks of pieces that shan’t fit
Looking glass has broken now and fit all it can hit
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| Sweet Blooms |
| 12.27.04 (1:11 pm) [edit] |
through the wings of an angel a new soul is born
welcome to this new age of the Satan’s horn
apples won’t save they next serpent’s skin
watch it decay in lifeless sin
how many times will this cycle over
love me not, last leaf on this clover
feel the pain dye at my right side
nothing left of your will to hide
one more tearless cry
one more reason to die
reality is disfragmented in every new reflection
simply another tainted love rejection
hatch the egg that once bore so deep
another crop of nightmares to reap
tell me what is missing this time around
voiceless with a new cosmetic sound
with feet never touching the ground
together forever I was never bound
damned to a hell inside my head
lay sweet child in my bloodstained bed
killing sweet my dear innocense
no time for resonance
diabolic alcoholic insomniac
visions have blurred
new emotionless states have stirred
coming to sensations lost in a heart’s beat
burning corruption at an everlasting heat
world of ending times is near
wash it away in crimson fear
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| Falling Needles |
| 12.27.04 (1:10 pm) [edit] |
Saw the last needle fall from the eye of hope
Naught left but to give into this rope
One last breath I waste upon you
Casting one final jinx on these nightmares that have come true
Fear behind the eyes upon the one who loved and lost
Built up decay by one kiss to the next
Holy to Hades your words and your heart-filled text
Damned to the earth and restrained by destruction chains
The void onto you now and forever reigns
Feel what it’s like to bear these pains
Watch how much it gains
From your voiceless screams they cannot hear
Damned to waste away in what you call fear
Never for you, again, shall I spill another tear
Serpents of death, the wraiths have come to play
Wither through your veins, Do as I say
Turn your nightmares into a hydra of a thousand heads
The numbness is to your reflection never being the same
Wilting and expiring you will now
Feeling this crucifixion of unending shame
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